I originally published this on Martinis and Minivans but thought I would publish here now. It’s been 3 years and we are STILL homeschoolingand I don’t really have much time for myself as I feared BUT I do believe it’s worth it.
We almost gave up and sent the kids to public school this year but I decided that it was not the best decision despite how stressed and crazy I feel.
We are looking into housekeeper/nanny in the mornings for 3 to 5 days a week to help alleviate some of the stress factors.
We shall see.
Summer is winding to a close and my head has been spinning with a mix of emotions. This is the year our family begins a new journey as a homeschool family and I could not be more excited or nervous about our decision.
I’ve always known, even before I had children, that I wanted to be fully in charge of my children’s education, but for whatever reason it just didn’t seem to “fit” before now.
This hasn’t been an easy process, I almost backed out many times. The most recent time being just last week.
It’s not easy to have 3 little boys in the house at all time, it leaves very little down time for Mommy. It also leaves little time for cleaning. I must have a clean house or I can’t focus. How does one homeschool if they can’t focus?
That’s where the emotion comes in. Why would I waiver on something SO important just for a little bit of “ME” time? Why would I waiver just for a clean house?
Isn’t it completely selfish that I would even consider sending him back into a system that can’t meet his demands, just for own personal gain?
Is this normal?
Of course it is. I am human. I need down time, like anyone else.
It’s how I survive. It’s how YOU survive. Is it not?!
What else can I change, so that I still provide my boys what they need while making sure I still get what I need?
Maybe I don’t have to change anything, or at least not much. Maybe I just need to keep doing what I am doing and trust that my husband will continue to be there and step in for me.
My husband has been amazing. He has supported my decision from day one, never getting annoyed when I changed my mind or cried about thinking it was a mistake. He hasn’t complained (much) as I drag him along, spending countless dollars organizing and assembling bookshelves. He also hasn’t complained when I’ve asked for more time with my friends then ever before.
He knows this is what I need to focus; to be organized and ready.
While most families I know are winding down and getting ready for yet another year of the same routine, I am now very ready to start a brand new chapter with my precious family.
I can’t wait to begin making amazing memories that my children will never forget.
I’m also a little scared.