The woman that caused my accident? She was one of my best friends at the time.
I’ve only “spoken” to her through letters when I was pregnant with William. I can’t even remember if I told her I was expecting.
She was also married to my brother, at the time.
Where is she now? I’m not really sure. I’ve heard a little bit here, and a little bit there. When her oldest son, my nephew, got married, I saw her in the background of one of the pictures.
That’s where it’s stopped. I’ve heard rumors that she’s made snarky comments about having “served her time”. It was lead to imply no one should be angry or upset and all should be forgiven. I have not heard this first hand, so I have no idea how many times it may or may not have been twisted “telephone” style before it got to me.
Do I blame her? YES.
Do I forgive her? I suppose that I do. That’s a question I struggle with answering. Saying NO implies I want to go back and change everything and that is far from the truth. Saying yes implies I should “forget” about it. I know people are often “forgiven but not forgotten” so maybe that’s where we can leave it?!
Do I want to be her best friend again. Not hardly.
Do I want to know her again? Yes, I think so??
Will I take the action to reconnect? No.
It’s really a bizarre situation. She took my life and turned it upside down. I didn’t let it stay that way. I wouldn’t change any of it because I adore the life I have today.
My mom and brother? That’s a completely different story. They don’t get it. Not entirely. My brother looks at me like a pitiful invalid. It’s really funny. The stares, shaking of his head. It’s actually insulting. My mom is still just devastated that my life was changed so drastically. I know that she sees how happy I am but I don’t think she gets it the way I do. She always talks about how things have to be so much more difficult for me but yet I do it anyways.
The funny thing? Things aren’t difficult for me.
I’ve really gotten off track with this one, so I will go ahead and close for now. If there is ever a reconnection, I will let you know.