{"id":5972,"date":"2013-05-30T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2013-05-30T11:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/?p=5972"},"modified":"2013-05-30T15:14:44","modified_gmt":"2013-05-30T20:14:44","slug":"letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/2013\/letting-go\/","title":{"rendered":"Letting go"},"content":{"rendered":"

Jenni wants us to dig deep again today and I knew right away that it would once again come back to my wreck<\/a>.<\/p>\n

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I was BEST friends with Vicky<\/a>. She was my brother’s wife and I could tell her anything and she could tell me anything.<\/p>\n

I still hold MANY of those secrets.<\/p>\n

I’ll never betray what we had, but we will NEVER have what we had again either.<\/p>\n

It took many years before I even wanted to speak to her.<\/p>\n

She wrote to me and I briefly wrote back, telling her as little as possible.<\/p>\n

One day, I was looking at my niece’s facebook page and all of a sudden I wanted to let go.<\/p>\n

I didn’t want to talk about it in detail.<\/p>\n

I never even discussed it with my husband or my mom.<\/p>\n

In fact, this is the first time I’m writing about it.<\/p>\n

I texted my niece. The woman I remember SO well as a little bitty girl, trying to listen in to what my best friend and I had to say. What her mother and her Aunt had to say.<\/p>\n

I asked for Vicky’s phone number.<\/p>\n

I texted her and I said hello. I can’t remember exactly what I said but it some thing along the lines of “I’m perfectly well. My boys are gorgeous. I hope you are well.”<\/p>\n

That was it. It felt like closure.<\/p>\n

I let go this part of me that I’d been holding onto for 12.5 – 13 years and it felt amazing.<\/p>\n

I have no plans to be her friend again. I have no plans to text her again.<\/p>\n

She has my number. She knows how to find me.<\/p>\n

I’m OPEN to exploring the idea of keeping the doors open, but I feel no need to be the one to take those steps.<\/p>\n

I let her know that my life was fabulous.<\/p>\n

I know she didn’t purposely cause that wreck, she paid her time, etc.<\/p>\n

I let it go and I cracked the door.<\/p>\n

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