{"id":5941,"date":"2013-05-07T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2013-05-07T11:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/?p=5941"},"modified":"2013-05-06T23:01:58","modified_gmt":"2013-05-07T04:01:58","slug":"things-i-am-most-afraid-of","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/2013\/things-i-am-most-afraid-of\/","title":{"rendered":"things I am most afraid of"},"content":{"rendered":"

I chose to follow Jenni’s prompt today. “Things you’re most afraid of.”<\/p>\n


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\n<\/a><\/center>I’m going to take a few different angles with this one, mild to extreme.<\/p>\n

I will write about the things that create enough fear they could destroy me and the small things like spiders.<\/p>\n

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I can’t even look at a spider on my screen without shuddering and wanting to crawl inside myself to get away. Can you imagine how I react when I see a real one?!<\/p>\n

The biggest thing on my mind these days is my mom. I fear the day she’s gone. I talk to her several times a week, sometimes daily. I’m her baby and as of right now I’ll never carry on the relationship we share. I don’t have a daughter and I’m sure I’ll never have one.<\/p>\n

I never think about losing my husband. I’m comfortable enough in our relationship that I know with all my heart we will be together forever, by choice. The fear of something happening to him is something I never even let enter my mind. I can’t go there. I can’t imagine not having him by my side.<\/p>\n

When I was in the hospital last year, I briefly imagined how it would be if I ended up leaving my children motherless and I nearly feel apart<\/a>. I’m grateful for skilled doctors that made sure they put me back together again.<\/p>\n

I can’t fathom\u00a0losing a child<\/a>. Yet, my sister\u00a0faced this just over a year ago. The brokenness that over takes you every time you would dream your child is there but he’s not!?<\/p>\n

That is my greatest fear.<\/p>\n

These are all real fears.<\/p>\n

I’m a busy mom, so I don’t have time to think about these often. I couldn’t function or get through the day if I did, but these are the things I’m most afraid of. These are the things that are most important to me.<\/p>\n

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I chose to follow Jenni’s prompt today. “Things you’re most afraid of.” I’m going to take a few different angles with this one, mild to extreme. I will write about the things that create enough fear they could destroy me and the small things like spiders. I can’t even look at a spider on my […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[61],"tags":[215],"class_list":{"0":"post-5941","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-featured","7":"tag-fear","8":"entry","9":"has-post-thumbnail"},"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p5zEve-1xP","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5941","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5941"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5941\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5941"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5941"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5941"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}