{"id":4833,"date":"2012-03-14T10:51:18","date_gmt":"2012-03-14T16:51:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/?p=4833"},"modified":"2012-03-14T10:56:56","modified_gmt":"2012-03-14T16:56:56","slug":"because-he-had-to-die","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/2012\/because-he-had-to-die\/","title":{"rendered":"Because he had to die"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s been a week since the funeral and 10 days since he had to die. It’s been a long 10 days, but wasn’t it just yesterday?!<\/p>\n

I wrote this pos<\/a>t and said that very little of our day to day will change. I was wrong. Our day to day has changed in more ways than I ever imagined.<\/p>\n

I think about Dylan every day and all the “What ifs?”.<\/p>\n

I’ve become a different mom.<\/p>\n

I hold my kids tighter, more often.<\/p>\n

My house is messier.<\/p>\n

I say things, I never thought I would say and think things I never thought I would think.<\/p>\n

That phrase “I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck!” ? It’s not funny anymore. It’s not acceptable.<\/p>\n

The fear of crossing the road or the parking lot with my kids is so intense now, that I’m more afraid than I should be.<\/p>\n

I don’t know if the change is for the better, or not but I’m changed. Because he had to die.<\/p>\n

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Dylan and NaNa (that's me) at Mr.Gatti's in 2004 or 08?<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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