I know it sounds absurd. Why would I want to be there? It’s for sick people. You are constantly being bothered by someone; day and night.
\nYou are away from home and your family. Why would I miss a place like that?<\/p>\n
I have absolutely NO idea.<\/p>\n
I don’t miss it right this minute, but there have been fleeting moments the last 2 weeks where I just want to be back there.<\/p>\n
Wait, have I really been home 2 weeks?<\/p>\n
I feel as if I’ve accomplished NOTHING in those 2 weeks and that’s the truth. I haven’t. I think that’s my answer. I’m home so I feel like I should be doing the things I’m supposed to be doing. Instead I’m sitting in a recliner and paying someone else to keep my kids entertained. If I were in a hospital it would be a proper place to be lazy. Right?<\/p>\n
I really need to just accept that this is ok and that I don’t need to be in the hospital. I’m being “lazy” so I can heal. My body needs to heal.<\/p>\n
I hate to admit it but there is a part of me that misses the good stuff I got in the hospital. If I felt bad or had pain I got more meds through my IV and it worked instantly.<\/p>\n
The other night I was having more pain than usual and I was clinching my fists to fight the pain. Instinctively I started to move my right thumb up and down as if I was pressing my button for more meds.<\/p>\n
I guess I miss the guilt free feeling you have in the hospital. I should have just said that and been done, but it took writing all my ramblings down for me to figure that out.<\/p>\n
These recovery posts should be fun to look back on in a year.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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