{"id":4613,"date":"2012-01-03T18:15:05","date_gmt":"2012-01-04T00:15:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/?p=4613"},"modified":"2012-01-03T20:21:24","modified_gmt":"2012-01-04T02:21:24","slug":"im-lost-and-broken","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/2012\/im-lost-and-broken\/","title":{"rendered":"I’m lost and broken"},"content":{"rendered":"

Literally, I am. In 12 years I’ve only had one other complication. I hate when things go wrong,<\/p>\n

There is no need to read into the title of my post. I’m still me. I still love life and my family. I’m NOT depressed. or angry. I’m just in lots of pain.<\/p>\n

It all started on the 29th (thursday)- it came on gradually and continued to get worse but I was able to sleep some. Friday morning, I was screaming in agony.<\/p>\n

There were no if, ands or buts about it. I had to go the doctor and I had to go now.<\/p>\n

Except I don’t have a “regular” doctor. I just haven’t had any needs to warrant a regular doctor. \u00a0My \u00a0ladies parts doctor took care of the major stuff at my annual. I guess I need to find a regular doctor. It’s at the top of my list now. Wherever that list is …<\/p>\n

Back to the pain. The doctors are still at a loss (see they are kinda LOST) and aren’t 100% sure what to do so they are running ever test possible and contacting the part numbers to track down who my doc used.<\/p>\n

Just an FYI – Its taken me 30 minutes to write this much. I can’t stay focused and I keep have DEEP sleep dreams that I think last at leas 1-2 minutes and the dream itself a bit longer). It’s a strange feeling.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

So parts. They are tracking down the part number of the rods in my back because they are broken — SEE BROKEN.<\/p>\n

There is a good chance I will have surgery to remove all or some of the metal. (titanium to be precise .. IT’S NOT SUPPOSED TO BREAK)<\/p>\n

It’s been a long 5 days.<\/p>\n

It’s beoming really stressful. I can transfer myself because it hurts to Charlie has to do everything for me. It’s not really big stuff but it still sucks to need help with stuff.<\/p>\n

I’m trying to do my scooting around and pressure relieving on my own.<\/p>\n

It hurts if I move \u00a0or not and I haven’t been told to stay still, so I think wiggling is best.<\/p>\n

I also had to take off all my rings today. I took them off before my MRI and then put them back on. It’s habit. They belong there. So I put them back on immediately. More talk about surgery made me try to get them off right away. I don’t want to know what fixing broken rings cost. They eventually came off but I was afraid we’d have to cut. We did not<\/p>\n

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I feel like post is all jumbled up and probaby sounds like I’m out it, and that would be because I am.<\/p>\n

I’m so appreciative that my mom is here taking care of the big boys and they I have friends wiling too help with drop off and another with pick up.<\/p>\n

Typing this was difficult enough. I’m NOT proofreading it. sorry. I’ll conclude for now. \u00a0Hopefully I will eventually be better again and back to me. It’s hard to be me with all the “good stuff”<\/p>\n

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Literally, I am. In 12 years I’ve only had one other complication. I hate when things go wrong, There is no need to read into the title of my post. I’m still me. I still love life and my family. I’m NOT depressed. or angry. I’m just in lots of pain. It all started on […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[132,335,147],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4613","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-family","7":"category-sponsors-reviews","8":"category-wheelchair-stuff","9":"entry","10":"has-post-thumbnail"},"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p5zEve-1cp","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4613","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4613"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4613\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4613"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4613"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.wheelchairmommy.com\/closed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4613"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}